Why?
Tested again today. Another BFN. As much as I like living in this delusion, thinking that there's a small chance of being PG, I really just want to get the show on the road. I'm really just waiting to see what happens- I have no real expectations of what's coming.
If I am PG, awesome. I just wish my body would let me in on the secret. I want to know. ASAP. I do not want to waste one minute of the happiness that a BFP would provide me. I want it. And I want it now. You all know me and patience. Just not happening.
If I'm not PG, ok. I'll deal. Just let AF come, so I can wallow in self-pity and pain for 2 days, and then get right back on track to try again. If I am not PG though, I think it is incredibly cruel of my body to put me through this.
I keep thinking, "Geez, I'm 13 dpo. That's promising, right?". And then I realize that no, it's really not promising. I'm not 13 days late for my period or anything, I am actually only 1 day late. And that's not a for sure figure. I will probably test again in the morning. We'll see though. I think my heart can handle it, but it may have to wait a little longer.
Oh, what the hell am I saying? You all know I'm going to test in the morning if the temps look ok.
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