I am not going to make it.

No way. No how.

There is no way that I am going to be able to resist testing until Sunday. I had to go to the store today for some other things, and it just seemed to be a good time to buy a test. Ugh. I shouldn't have, but I did. I can't help it. Every time I walk by the bathroom drawer, I think "Oh...I could just do it real quick. Just to see." And then I think, "No, just wait. It's still early yet. Just wait. Do you really want to look at another negative test?" "No...I want to see a positive one...which it could be." It's a mental struggle that no one should need to endure. I am going to try my hardest to not test tonight, because if I'm already testing "early", then I should definitely wait until morning to test with FMU. Although, my max. LP was 12 days, so theoretically speaking, if I don't get my period tomorrow, and I test, say, Saturday, then I won't really be testing early. My period would actually be a day late. I think I said that right.

Geez, I just don't know. I think if I do test tomorrow, I wouldn't be able to hold it in. There are certain people who are going to suspect early on-people who know we are trying. Two friends were just commenting the other day about how they are never going to be able to figure out when I get PG unless I tell them. I don't drink, I don't smoke, I eat ok, I already pee a lot, and I am a master at being cunning. Just to be a brat, I told them that all that was true...I could be PG right now, and they'd never know. I got some killer looks for that one.

It's sad when you buy a household product and it becomes the highlight of your day. Our kitty had a little bladder infection going on, and had an accident last week on the carpet. She's better now, but I can not seem to get the spot out, no matter what I put on it. And I've tried everything just short of straight bleach. So today when I was at the store, I decided to purchase the Bissell Little Green. It's a deep cleaner. Now, I cannot wait to finish this so that I can go clean my carpet. Man, I am a L-O-S-E-R. Whatever. At least I'll be a loser with clean carpet.

And I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up testing tonight. I suck at life.